It finally happened. Eight year old Eliza has finally taken an
interest in this, my seven year old, blog! The other day, as she was
surfing the internet, she asked me how to find her Aunt Ami's blog.
Per the norm, I try to deflect the attention away from my sister and back over to me.
I'm so shallow, what?!
"You
know, Eliza" I say. "Our family has a blog too." Because she is not
allowed to have her own instagram account, Eliza thinks blogging is
pretty cool.
Appeasing her dear old Mom, she clicks to
my most recent post and settles in for a solid twenty minutes (possibly
longer). When her reactions become audible, I stop what I'm doing and
lay on the couch across the room from where she is sitting. Having
waited a long time for this moment, I allow myself the pleasure of
taking in the ever changing expressions on her face. My heart swells
with delight as she laughs at my jokes.
"Good one, Mom!" She says. I even catch a little heat for the post about our recent outings with the Blasers.
"That
'goodbye' was not awkward!" She insists, rolling her eyes. My stomach
sinks for a moment. I hope there isn't much else in my blog's history
that could possibly hurt or offend one of my kids. Other than that
fleeting moment of concern, it was a validating and rewarding experience
for me.
As the comments from my posts and many blogging friends have
disappeared, there have definitely been times when I thought about
disappearing from the blogging world too. I've tried other journal type
methods but nothing suits me quite like this. Instagram is loads of fun,
feel free to find me @aliflegal and we can be friends, but I don't want
my insta friends to grow insta weary of all photos and documenting that
must be done when you have four kids who are growing up so darn quick.
And, it must be said, I like to play with words. I love the backspace
button and the freedom it affords me to change, correct and begin fresh
as needed. I like that (the two) people who visit this blog are here
because they want to be and not because they have to be. And now,
knowing that one of the stars of this blog is frequenting it and
enjoying it, I feel very happy.
In the days that
followed that first reading session, Eliza's ventured into the archives.
The other day she found photos of Lottie when she was two months old
and together with Henry and Lottie they marveled over her cuteness. When
I return to the archives myself, the posts I enjoy most are the ones
that described a "mundane" type of day. It may have felt ordinary when I
wrote it, but now it's a (excuse me as I cover my keyboard in syrup)
treasured memory considering how that particular phase, that type of day, is
forever out of reach. Those babies aren't babies anymore. In fact,
they're getting ready to start third and first grade in a week and a
half and now share the attention they once had to themselves with two
more siblings (as an example).
So, future Ali, here's what you and Andrew did today.
Do
you remember the leather couches you bought off of Craigslist in South
Carolina back in 2008? We bought them for $400.00. For our family it was
both a steal and a splurge of a purchase all at once. It was also quite
scandalous as we bought them on a Sunday; which was confessed openly to
our home teacher when Andrew called to ask if he could borrow his
trailer to pick them up. These well loved and over used couches were
recently retired. Banished to the garage a few months ago, Andrew's been
forced to park in the driveway. Finally, today, Andrew sold one of them
and then broke apart the other one because it made him feel like a man.
He plans to haul its remains to the dump. The garage was then cleaned
and his car returned to its home.
As for me, I've been
in the process of cleaning out children's closets. It's tedious and
sometimes slow moving when a certain fifteen month old is in the room
(not) helping me. Between monitoring the toys he's tempted to put in his
mouth and watching in dismay as he unrolls the stack of clothes that
were previously neatly stacked next to me... it can be frustrating. I've
put off Lottie's section of the closet because I don't want to wonder
right now if I should donate them all or save them for a possible,
future baby. Andrew's strong opinion is that those clothes are ready for
a new home. :)
Having persevered through Eliza and
Henry closets of chaos and their overstuffed drawers of doom, we were
rewarded with shopping trips for new school clothes and shoes.
That's not even the half of it.
Good grief.
However,
Henry skipped out on the fun shopping part. While Henry was cleaning out
the chicken coop with his Dad today, I walk out to the coop and ask,
"Hey
pal! Do you want to come with Mom to go look at some new clothes for
school?" Not wanting to hurt my feelings, he hesitates. I throw the kid a bone:
"You
don't have to, honey." What I wanted to say was "Please come Henry! I
want some time alone with you! It will be fun and I will buy you a
treat. That's a personal win for me because I like to eat treats too!"
"I think I'll stay here and keep working with my Dad. Thanks though, Mom." Andrew beamed at me from inside of the chicken coop.
"So
are you okay if the girls come instead and help me choose some cool clothes?" Andrew and Henry
both nod. Forrest was napping, by the way. Lottie didn't want to come
which left Eliza buzzing with excitement. She and I do love our one on
one time together. It didn't bother her for a minute that the shopping
we'd be doing was for Henry.
Fueling up at Cafe Zupas
while out on our "back to school" shopping trip for Henry
Alone in the car, I turned
off the radio as Eliza made it clear that it was time for some serious
girl talk! Not wanting to embarrass her, I won't repeat what her
specific questions. I wanted to take her seriously without being too
serious; if that makes sense. She has many grown up questions that she
anticipates future Eliza will need to know the answer to (ie: love
triangles). You want to prepare your children without stressing them out completely. She's a romantic! And I don't want to spoil her ideas of love by telling her how ugly relationships can be when you make crappy choices. The seriousness of that warning will be taught, I assure you. But for now, I feel that the best thing Andrew and I can do for her, is to love each other openly and try our best to keep our marriage healthy and strong. That example is what they need to see daily. Thankfully, she's only eight. And we have time to prepare before that season truly arrives. During our conversation,
there were many times when I had to default with, "I'll explain that better when you're a little older..." even so, I still
had plenty, age appropriate, experiences to share. I apologize for the tangent.
I'm so
curious how Lottie will approach these thoughts. Will she be an open
book like her sister? Eliza really does hunger and thirst for knowledge:
secular, spiritual and all things "girly girly" I'm so blessed to be
her Mom and hope she'll always come to me for things like this (more
syrup... sorry) instead of the Twilight novels (among other sources).
Insert cute Lottie pictures here:
Lottie rocks the 80's summer hair magnificently.
I'll pay better attention to her amazing curls when school begins.
I promise.
How about a moment of silence for her eye lashes?
Henry may have skipped out on his back to school shopping, but he can't always manage his way out of a trip to the store. That lucky duck heard Target slushies were involved so he happily signed up for this trip. These two...
Brain Freeze!
And I feel bad that Forrest is not featured so let's close with this: